Yuck, yuck, yuck!

I wish I had something more positive to say, but basically yuck is the only word to describe what I'm feeling right now. My stomach is in knots, and I feel so sick. I normally am fine through the mornings and get worse as the day goes on. But today has been an exception. I fought off the urge until about 9 am, when I barely made it to the bathroom and got sick.

Luckily Zofran has been my saving grace today, but I'm still bubbling and feeling naseous by the taste in my mouth. Why does it have to make me so sick?!?! I am ready to feel excited about this growing blueberry, but now all i feel is a huge desire for the weeks to pass quickly. I PRAY that I'm one of the lucky ones who have it pass by 12 weeks. That is still 4 weeks from now- but at least the end would be in site.

Think happy thoughts for my sore jaw and tummy muscles, that are being majorly overworked.

Cats out of the Bag

So we didn't wait till 12 weeks to tell. I've been feeling so sick and Matt was ready for me to have someone else to cry/complain too.

We took both of our parents a thank you card for the Valentine's gifts they gave us, and put the ultrasound inside of it. Both of our mom's cried, or at least got a bit teared up. I think his mom was way more shocked than mine, but her reaction was still classic.

My brother Brandon was on the phone giving us updates on when their next one will be making an appearance (probably in the next week), so we went ahead and shared the news. I called Ashley and Justen shortly after, so now the whole family is caught up on our growing situation:) It definitely is a sense of relief that I can at least talk about it to my mom and Ashley, it was hard pretending everything was hunkie dory.

As for the M/S, yep threw up at work again today. Sucks big ones. Am I 12 weeks yet?!?!

Kill Me Now

Seriously, is this what woman feel like through the first trimester? I've been feeling a bit naseous over the past week but nothing like today. I seriously feel like I have the worst hangover of my life. I am so sick to my stomach and just feel horrible!!! I have tried to gingerly munch on simple proteins and crackers but nothing will stay down. Even drinking water makes me feel horrible.

I called dad in misery, with tears streaming down my face, all while trying to act normal at work. I had to run to Wal-mart to pick up items for camp and every smell made me want to yack on the tile floor. Unfortanely this may be my future for the next few weeks and I am DEFINITELY not looking forward to it. Ugh, how can something so small make me so sick. This stinks! Happy Valentine's Day to me. I'm going home to get some Zofran and pray that it can only make me feel better.

Confirmed

We are definitely having a baby! Had our first appointment at my dad's office for an ultrasound this morning. Kay confirmed that I am definitely pregnant and the baby is measuring 5 weeks 6 days. So I will be 6 weeks tomorrow, on Valentine's Day! That puts my due date at October 9th, 2008. We're having a Fall baby!

Matt was a bit freaked out by the whole experience. Being that he has no sisters and NO knowledge of what goes on at the gynecologist he was weirded out that I had to sit there with no pants on. Haha! It finally felt real to him, and he's excited about what is to come. We even got to hear a few faint flutters of the heartbeat, but it's very early and not easily recognized.

Here is the first picture of the peanut (more like a piece of rice). Mostly just a sac of fluid at this point but it's still exciting!! Kay even put a little message on it for our mom's.

It says what!!!

Since we've decided not to tell anyone, this is my only outlet at this time to explain all the emotions and crazy things going on in our life. I still don't get how I go from crying one night because I think it will be hard to get pregnant, to the next day being pregnant.

Background: Since I went off the pill after the wedding, my cycles have been anything but normal. I've tried keeping track of them so I had an idea of what was going on with my body. Since December not much has been happening and after talking with my dad we figured it was because I wasn't ovulating. He mentioned that I'd probably have to take Clomid to ovulate and get things going. After he told me that I spent a week feeling horrible and like something was wrong with me. I got very emotional and on February 1st finally broke down to Matt about how I was afraid I couldn't get pregnant.

Leading up to February 2nd: The next morning I just felt like something wasn't right. I was very emotional, bloated, and just felt kinda sick to my stomach. I wasn't sure if it was from going out the night before, or otherwise. So that afternoon I told Matt I was going to take a test. I did, and a faint but very obvious second line appeared. UH- heart sinks- HUH?

"Matt, um, I think I'm pregnant."

This was followed by many- "that's not a second line, we'll go buy some more". We spent the afternoon looking at houses and were a little dumbfounded. I went from thinking I couldn't get pregnant to being pregnant in less than 12 hours. That's a weird feeling!! After holding in my pee for 4 hours we bought 2 more tests, which both quickly screamed positive.

I called and told my dad the next morning. He was actually excited and for the first time I felt excited and happy. He highly suggested we not tell anyone until we get through the first trimester. Me keep that big of a secret, aaaah, not easy. But here I am over 2 weeks later resorting to writing it all down. I can do this:)